True to myself

I failed this week at my personal goal. I was disappointed because I wanted those 5 points. But more importantly I wasn't true to myself.

I often will say to myself "just a small portion and then I'm done" or "no seconds tonight at dinner for me" or something similar, then end up disregarding that self-made promise and binge or have thirds and fourths at dinner. I have had more than a few weeks to ponder on this fact. Why is it that I am so untrue to myself? Isn't what I say in my mind to myself just as important as anything said out loud?

Generally speaking I am a pretty dependable person. If I say I will do it - I do it. If you need my help and I offer - then you can depend on me. I would like to consider myself as one with integrity and honesty. BUT when I say one thing and end up doing another (only in my mind of course, and I am the only one suffering)....that is NOT being true to myself, NOT honest or having integrity, and NOT dependable.

I have decided I want to be MORE true to myself. If I say, just one taste then one taste it is. If I say no seconds, then no seconds it is. I want to be true to myself. True to what I say, whether out loud or not.